Sacrifice...

That's MY nice warm snuggly blanket, or it was!! On the positive side though, it seems to have magical calming qualities. That's the only reason I am even remotely ok with this!

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I am not a big fan...

... nor have I ever been of formal posed group photos at weddings. Fortunately, some of my clients feel the same!

Happy Thursday! (its friday tomorrow ;)

Tribute to a friend...

As a kid, I followed her around like a puppy dog!

she was the pretty one, the cool one, the talented one.

we have loved, and fought. Hung out, and lost touch. Laughed and cried.

Many times throughout my life I changed my mind about who my 'best friend' was, and so decided that really there was no such thing beyond the playground.

But then somewhere along the way I figured it out...

The best type of friend is the type that was there all along. The type you can fight with, cry with, lose touch with and yet never lose.

We are 29 and a half, but today, she is 30.

Happy Birthday Bethany! Thank you for sticking with me all these years. If I've learnt nothing else, its that I need you for the next 29.5, if not the one after that too. 

Thank you for being a true 'best friend' x

Acceptance revisited..... or increased....or done to death... or...whatever!!!!

about 2 weeks ago, I started writing the following post...


I'm feeling a little frazzled, a little dog-eared around the edges! A friend wished me 'a lovely christmas' last night and I genuinely thought 'wha...uh?.... ahahahahahahaha! yeah, good one! pahahahah!'

Yep, this is the grinch here, reporting direct from grump central! I've even swapped hats with dave...
see...

anyhow, before my pity-party gets out of hand, maybe we should introduce just a hint of perspective....

...

... and then i got SO busy and SO distracted that, well, I forgot all about it until now!

And unfortunately, that totally sums up Christmas for me this year! Sad times! :(

Acceptance

  There are one or two things in my life that, try as I might, I just can't seem to accept. I suppose the underlying truth is that I just don't want to accept them.
  A new one has joined the list this week, it is that December has started without me!! I'm just not at where I wanted to be at yet, and here we are, 7 days in. So I have decided to just take a big deep breath and accept it.

 Whilst I haven't even started decorating the house, my desk is feeling a little more festive, thanks to my little Charlie Brown christmas tree...

and advent calendar...

And the view out of my window is pretty perfect too!

up and down....

....up and down! Crazy isn't it?! I know people say you are supposed to 'enjoy the ride' but sometimes, honestly, I just don't! whilst its only a temporary fix feeling angry is so much easier, and seems less painful than feeling upset. But it's not a solution. Especially when there is no one to direct that anger at, except maybe yourself at a stretch.
   Been listening to this over and over (with the volume on full), letting the words fall around me like little grenades...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wvkbZfXK25E

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting
I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying
I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell, can't bring myself
To do what it is you think I should

discovery of the week!!

RUSKS!! only 2 points on the new weight watchers for a really big sweet biscuit to get me through the afternoon. HOW did I not discover this sooner?!?! will be on the shopping list from now on! :)